Need to make a decision

After the race on Sunday, I decided there was NO WAY I would be ready for my first Half Ironman (Pumpkinman) on September 7.

But then I was thinking, I am training for the marathon starting TODAY (6.3 miles this AM), so the run distance will be covered.

I have agreed to ride long with my friend going to KONA two times before Sept 7, once on the Eastern Shore of Maryland (hopefully at least 70 miles) where we are going on vacation with my family, and once (or even twice) over Labor Day weekend in Vermont, as we are renting a lake house with friends. And I have other weekends without plans between now and September, too. So the bike is (semi) covered.

And I'm not really worried about the swim.

So the question is...WHAT TO DO!???! I really want to do it. Looking at the calendar, there aren't any other OLYs that fit into my schedule (am going to South Africa for work Sept 10-21). That takes all the really popular OLY in this area out of the picture (Mighty Hamptons (loved this race last year), Westchester (sold out anyway), Lake George Tri).

I don't know what to do. I think if I sign up for the half, I will train. I think I can physically do it. But do I want to 'finish' or 'race'- back to my mixed feelings about my race this weekend. But is 'racing' in the cards at all this season- I just don't know...